POETRY: "To my strength"

I wanted to love you for a lifetime you wanted me for a moment in time.
I wanted to wake up early mornings to you, you wanted for me to just do you.
I needed more from our affair, you seen what we were as staying just right there .
I seen us as husband and wife, you seen us as lovers in the night.
So I ask why lead me to believe that you are this Godly creature sent here to be my divine covenant. To sweep me off my feet and live in perfect harmony and the peace God intended for us to have. Why not just be honest with me rather than leave me to be lonely. I seen you as my other half merely because you led me to believe there was more. I know you said we would develop over time and I was ok with that because you were ok with that. And I know you said let’s take our time. Yet I never knew taking our time consisted of you between my legs thrusting what I thought was your love into my soul.  You told me that I was sent by God to teach you to love. So I let you love me by making love to me. So, why? Why don’t you love me? I tried to make it easy for you to love me. And you said that God sent you to me to teach me how to be strong, because I was so delicate. So, why? Why do I feel so fragile?  Why am I feeling like at any moment the slightest of breeze could come and knock my plus sized structure to the ground? You said space I gave you space! You said time I gave you time! What you said I would do. What you needed was given and then some. So again I ask why? Why don’t you love me? Why are your intentions to be with her when I gave you my all? Didn’t I touch in all the right places? Oh wait maybe I didn’t, because I tried to touch your mind and your heart. Yet it’s so obvious to me now from the lies that you told, that you don’t think or feel.  You sold me a dream. Retold me the same fantasy you told her. Or shall I say retailed me, because I bought every word. But the thing that hurts the most is I let you. I can’t even be angry with you cause I let you.
I called you my boo you called me your friend. I called it love but you called it the end.  I saw a future and you saw nothing but wet bed sheets. I made love to you in my mind you screwed me into defeat. I thought I was investing into my future but I let you sale me the dream. Never again!

SIGNING OFF - Virtuous Woman

POETRY: "Take His Hand"

My man is heaven-bound and spirit-struck.

He is blessed and highly favored so he does not believe in luck.

He is the epitome of God's divinity.

Wrapped in package sent only for me.

I know that he will never cheat on me.

Because what we have is God’s destiny.

Though people try to split our bond with lies and games.

We know what the Lord blesses shall always sustain.

True Love with him bound by God’s presence.

What we possess is engulfed in God’s essence.

My man will Love God so much he can’t avoid his presence through my spirit.

He can’t fathom not wanting to share it with me and just be near it.

My man will love me so deeply that only God can see the truth in our passion.

But my man will still represent our Love in a Holy Fashion.

My man will be by my side when I have heavy moments and burden strikes.

Praying, loving and reminding how God rules our life.

He will respect my strength, my heart and not be intimidated by me.

But allow it to better us in the bond God intended us to be.

When he wraps me in his arms I’ll know I’m safe.

Never worry about the outside world, because our love has faith.

Though the world my say we are wrong and try to rip us apart.

They will never break us because God guided us together through his spirit and our hearts.

My man will be my life, love and in times of need my best friend.

He will respect me, care for me and assist my heart in the mend.

He will never deliberately make me shed a tear.

He will hold my hand as we pray away all of our fears.

He will be my strength in moments I am weak.

Tell me when I’m wrong and guide me to re-plant my feet.

He will sow the soil with love and prayer for your connection to never lack.

He will give me the world through his hands and always have my back.

He will be a grown man and keep our business at home.

Dive into who I am and see what the world has never known.

He’ll see past the outward beauty to the center of me.

Know my likes and peeves so as not to antagonize me. 

We will live blissfully in harmony only us two.

Praying and Loving, Loving and Praying in all things we go through.

As for myself I’m going to love this man until I expire.

Lift my man up only higher and higher.

Lay with him, pray with him and never stray from him.

Deal with him, feel with him, and always keep it real with him.

I will love him until every sinner bows to their knees to God for forgiveness.

Until fish can breathe with fresh air or one of us is laid to rest.

I will love him like no one but God can.

Show him just why God made him my man.

And today my Love this is why two become one and I take your hand. 

SIGNING OFF - Virtuous Woman

POETRY: "Slowly Slipping Away"

When I first met you it was blissful I didn’t trust you but who would if you been hurt like I had but you did all the right things to show me you cared holding my hand sweet late night and early morning phone calls love letters to say how much you care hell you even made me your top myspace friend cause I wanted to see if you would and as cheesy as it sounds I was flattered  I had my defenses up very hard but through time I saw them slowly slip away however when time went by and your attitude changed you begin to become more hostile and your promises begin to become less and less fulfilled until the promises just weren’t kept you say I’m changing but hell its cause your changing me and if you would of  just been u from day one we wouldn’t have these issues of who you were slowly slipping away now I am just disgusted with you and your not nothing like who I met you have become this non calling non emotional arrogant asshole that I know I didn’t meet originally you are to cocky for me and I want the person I fell for to come back but that’s not going to happen cause I see myself slowly slipping away now you see that I am done and you want to know why when you never opened your eyes to see who was hurting right in front of you now that I’m gone you seem to want to make it work but all I can think is its over and we are slowly slipping away

SIGNING OFF - Virtuous Woman

POETRY: "I WISH YOU WOULD LISTEN"

I wish I knew how to make all your pain go away.

I wish I could have power to the rain to a sunny day.

I wish I could be the one to conquer your heart.

I wish I could control how I feel when we part.

I wish you knew that I mean you no harm.

I wish that you could see my love when I hold you in my arms,

I wish all that hurt you would have never exist

I wish I could make it happen rather than wish.

I wish you could love me how I love you.

I wish I had to power to pull the sun from the sky so I can give you the moon.

I wish the constellations could paint the picture for you that I see.

I wish you would understand that my love is here for you not for me.

I wish I could move mountains to make your path in life easier.

I wish I could make you see the truth and become a believer.

I wish love never hurt you or never hurt I.

I wish I could get rid of your cants and make you just try.

I wish at times I never met you so I didn’t hurt when your not near..

I wish I never wished we never met because I do need you here.

I wish we could grow and see what we’re missing.

But my wishing is in vein because you won’t even listen.

SIGNING OFF - Virtuous Woman

POETRY: "I SAY NO"

NO MORE I LOVE YOU WITH ONE MORE KISS

NO MORE LETTERS FILLED WITH RELATIONSHIP BLISS

THE PHONE CALLS JUST TO SAY I LOVE YEAH THEY'LL BE MISSED

BUT I'M SO TIRED AND HAVE GONE WAY BEYOND BEING PISSED

NO MORE LATE NIGHT PHONE CONVO TO HELP US MEND AND REPAIR

NO MORE WOMAN YOU HAVE KNOW TO BE ALWAYS THERE

NO MORE FOOLISH ME TO THINK YOU STILL DO CARE

I BE DAMNED IF I CONTINUE THIS CHILDISH GAMES OF TRUTH OR DARE

NO MORE SAYING TO MYSELF HOW COULD YOU LIE LIKE THIS

NO MORE APOLOGIES RECEIVED CAUSE I'M NOT THAT STUPID CHICK

NO MORE TALKING STUPID OR THINKING WITH YOU (PAUSE) EGO

NO MORE BEING FOOLISH TO BELIEVE WHAT YOU SAY

IM NO LONGER IN LOVE WITH THE TRUTH YOU PORTRAYED

I CANT BRING MY SELF TO STAY AND HURT IN THIS WAY

NO MORE FEELINGS OF THE SAME OLE SAME

POINTING FINGERS, ONLY HAVING EACH OTHER TO BLAME

NO MORE LEAVING MY SANITY IN YOUR HANDS WHILE I GO INSANE

NO MORE LYING AT NIGHT ALONE WONDERING WHY AS I CRY

DUE TO ALL YOUR FAIRY TALE DREAMS FILLED WITH YOUR LIES

AND IM SO DAMN TIRED OF BELIEVING ALL YOUR PHONY ALIBIES

SIGNING OFF - Virtuous Woman

POETRY: "I Forgive You"

I FORGIVE YOU FOR ALL THE NEGATIVE THINGS YOU SAID ABOUT ME.
HOW YOU SLANDERED MY NAME AND TALKED DOWN ABOUT ME.
HOW YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE MY FAMILY, MY FRIEND, MY LOVER OR CONFIDANT.
YET INSTEAD YOU STABBED ME IN THE BACK ONLY TO TWIST THE KNIFE DEEPER WHEN I WAS NOT LOOKING.
HOW YOU SUBCONSCIOUSLY THREW HATE AND SHAME ON ME WHEN CAUSE YOU SEEK ATTENTION. HOW YOU WERE FILLED FULL OF BITTERNESS TO DO SOMEONE WRONG AND TALK DOWN TO SOMEONE YOU SAY YOU LOVE.
I FORGIVE YOU, BECAUSE I AM TIRED.
I AM TIRED OF HARBORING THE SAME BITTERNESS I LOOK AT YOU AS PITIFUL FOR HAVING.
I AM TIRED OF BEARING THE BURDEN OF YOU TURNING YOUR BACK ON ME WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST.
I AM TIRED OF CARRYING AROUND THE HATE THAT I SAY I HAVE LETTING GO.
I AM TIRED OF THE PILING UP OF FORGIVENESS IN MY HEART FOR YOU.
THE ONLY WAY I WILL BE CLOSE TO GOD IS TO LOVE YOU.
SO WHEN YOU TALK DOWN TO ME I WILL FORGIVE YOU AND TURN THE OTHER CHEEK.
WHEN YOU SAY NEGATIVE THINGS ABOUT MY ACTIONS I WILL CLOSE MY MOUTH TO IT.
I NOW REALIZE THAT I DO NOT HAVE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF TO YOU.
I ONLY HAVE TO ANSWER TO GOD. MY LIFE NEEDS NOT EXPLANATION.
THE ONLY THING I NEED IS TO SHOW EVERYONE WHO I AM BY ACTING ON GODS WILL.
MY VICTORY IS NOT PREDICATED ON YOUR WORDS OR THE SWORD OF HATE THAT YOU CHOOSE TO SLAY ME WITH.
MY VICTORY IS ONLY DETERMINED BY THE ACTIONS I TAKE.
THE HARD WORK I CHOOSE TO PUT IN AND THE FAITH I PUT ONLY IN MY GOD.
MY COMMITMENT IS FIRST AND FOREMOST TO GOD.
IF YOU CHOOSE TO COME ALONG FOR THE RIDE SO BE IT.
HOWEVER YOU MUST UNDERSTAND IF YOU GET ON THIS BOAT YOU HAVE TO HAVE WALK ON WATER FAITH TO BE IN MY SPIRITUAL REALM OF LIFE.
CAUSE I GOT THE VICTORY WITH OR WITHOUT YOU!

SIGNING OFF - Virtuous Woman

POETRY: "His Poem"

Because of you I know real love in a relationship.
Not the kind based on ownership.
You love me despite my flaws,
making me feel like there is hope after all.
Anything is possible with you as my love.
Now that I have met you I know the true meaning of,
what it means to compromise.
I see the beauty of God when I look in your eyes.
Because of you I view life differently, 
and I’m blessed just to have you all for me.
There Is a truth that resides inside of you.
That inspires me look at life from a different view.
You love me despite myself,
even when I put you through Hell.
I love you so much for all that you do.
You push me to continue to love you.
Even when I am insecure,
you love me all the more.
Your love always seems to supersede,
every single one of my insecurities.
You inspire me to be someone greater.
I get so excited to think of what comes later.
I see myself married to you for life,
you as my husband, I as you wife.
But not just any old kind of marriage,
the kind that last forever like our parents.
You make me desire like never before,
with a longing for you that is so pure.
It’s more to you than just longing of lustful fill.
It’s a passion for us to take this thing even higher in Gods will.
I have prayed to God for years for my prince charming,
but I got something way better that what I was longing.
I got a true love an unconditional bond forever.
I want to be with you until the end of never.
Please never be released from your embrace.
It is a pleasure to be the one who wakes up to you face to face.               
I left the old dreaded person that was me behind,
when in your arms I find peace of mind.
I LOVE YOU BABY!

POETRY: "The Break Up"

When we first met you inspired and gave me desire to live to the potential inside me.
But after time you continued to break my heart and play on my insecurities.

See my problem is I let you make me your woman before we became best friends.
And neglecting to do that didn’t allow me to see how much of a boy you are instead of a man.

You orchestrated lie after lie to keep me from finding out and that just backfired in your face.
The sad part is you can screw her, be true to her, and new to her but she will never take my place.

I loved you so hard that I neglected my well-being and it affected my health.
Thankfully I didn’t lose my connection to God because I completely lost myself.

I offered you peace and solidarity, a love that came from a place of God’s divine intervention.
See you will never have that again because you deal with whores that lie and only use to seek your attention

There is nothing I can do or nothing I can say that can force you to love me right.
I can love you can and I can play the role but I will never be your wife.

I can fertilize this and plant the seed for this thing to nurture and grow.
But when it likes commitment from you it’s pointless and I have to let go.

I tried to give you all of me and even a little  more
But I don’t want to be your number 1 if there is a 2, 3 and 4.

Because though I am afflicted by what you have put me through.
Gods work and his word have brought me to a place of new value.

Though I was slightly damaged by you, I still count you as a blessing.
I realize some people are brought in our lives to for a season just to teach you a lesson.

I never thought I could be that girl to be so consumed with a boy.
For someone that could neglect me and play with me like a toy.

But it’s no longer about the fact that I fell.
I must reflect on the fact that I came through this well.

From now I will be more selective on the man I choose.
Because it’s your loss and me I will never loose.

I praise God that he brought me through from the pain you caused in my heart.
And with the mental clarity of knowing though you’re unfaithful I was never carless on my part.

See I could have played with your heart too and had you thinking I was with another man.
I could have played with your emotions and ripped you apart like I know I can.

But the one thing I have that you may never possess is dignity and respect.
I don’t play childish games anymore and I don’t operate in neglect.

I acted in loyalty staying by your side praying one day you will love me right but I had to learn.
Love is something someone should just give and not something you have to earn.

So the next man that decides to come in my life and wants to pursue me.
Well let’s just say you have made me strong enough where they will not run right through me.

Now that I have cried and went through the pain I can smile.
Because I know that you will realize everything you had in me after a while.

As for you, don’t keep looking in your past at the hurt you were cause all along.
Because whether it is I or someone else you will look back in front of you and they will be gone.

I never seem to understand how someone can have a loyal girl and manage to abuse her.
Neglect to realize who they have until the day comes when they lose her.

So unless you change the man you are to be better for God and myself.
You have no say so in my life nor will you determine my Wealth.

It is going to take you going through hell and back to get me to be with you again.
But I refuse to be with someone who can’t live up to the potential of a man.

The choice at this point is yours and that is something you have to make.
Just if you take the steps to be with me, don’t come back at me with the same mistakes.

Cause I refuse to allow you to open a door of pain that God has closed for business.
For something meaningless and something that seems so relentless.  

I refuse to allow you to boost your Ego and your pride at the expense of my heart.
You’re going to have to make some changes and learn to play your part.

Because if you are the man you say you are you would have never brought me through this pain.
Seek within yourself a better you and seek to find what God designed for you when he gave you a name.

Because the man I know the man I see you to be.
You’re not a playboy or whom you choose to let the world see.

I see your hurt and pain and I see the things you been through.
Hell I seen into your heart simply because of the hell you put me through.

But Hell I shall have no more because when a good girl says goodbye she is gone forever.
It’s up to you to keep me if you want me and it’s your choice to make all things better.

I am not promising I will take you back because it’s in how you attempt to prove yourself.
I am too emotionally spent to deal with any more pain so until them my heart is put on a shelf. 

SIGNING OFF - Virtuous Woman

POETRY: "A WOMAN SCORNED"

SHE NEVER NEW HOW MUCH THE WORDS I LOVE YOU COULD HURT.

SEE SHE LOVED HIM WITH ALL SHE HAD EVEN AT HIS WORSE.

 IN HER HEART THAT SHE LOVED HIM FOR ALL THE RIGHT REASONS.

ONE DAY THIS MAN SHE LOVED SO DEAR WOULD BE HER HUSBAND.

BUT THAT ALL CHANGED IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE.

NO LONGER WAS IT THE LOVE SHE DESERVED BECAUSE HE ALWAYS MADE HER CRY.

BUT SHE NEVER GAVE UP BECAUSE SHE IS NOT THE TYPE TO QUICK.

SHE TRIED EVEN HARDER TO MAKE IT REAL FROM WHAT WAS COUNTERFEIT.

SHE LOVED HIM SO MUCH IT TOOK A PIECE OF HER TO TRY TO MAKE HIM WHOLE.

SHE GAVE MORE THAN SHE HAD NEVER REALIZING SHE WOULD BE LEFT TO FREEZE IN THE COLD.

WHEN SHE THOUGHT SHE GAVE HER LAST SHE GAVE IT ONE MORE TRY.

NEVER ALLOWING HER TO HEAL FROM THE LAST KNOWN LIE.

SHE BEGINS TO NO LONGER SEE THE FUTURE AHEAD.

HER EYES WERE TOO TEARY TO SEE THE MAN SHE LOVED NEXT TO HER IN THE BED.

BUT SHE HOLDS IT ALL INSIDE IN FEAR OF LOOSING WHAT SHE KNOWS.

THE ANGER INSIDE WAS LIKE A TEA KETTLE AND THE STEAM WAS ABOUT TO BLOW.

HE WAS TOO BLIND TO SEE ALL THE DESPISE SHE WAS BUILDING IN HER HEART.

TO REALIZE THE ONE PERSON THAT LOVED HIM WAS ABOUT TO FALL APART.

SO SHE PUTS ON A PRETTY SMILE TO HIDE ALL THE PAIN.

KNOWING ALL THE WHILE SHE IS LIVING IN VAIN.

SHE PRAYS EVERY NIGHT FOR GOD TO SEE HER THROUGH.

THAT THE MAN SHE LOVES REALIZES WHAT SHE IS TOO.

BUT THIS NEVER HAPPENS IT’S JUST HIS SILLY LOVE GAME.

NOT REALIZING THE MONSTER HE CREATED THE GAME WILL SOON CHANGE.

SHE LOVES HIM TILL SHE CANT LOVE NO MORE.

THEN THE DAY COMES WHERE SHE IS BOUT TO HIT THE DOOR.

SO HE PLEADS TO HER NO HE WILL SURELY TRANSFORM.

SHE SEES HIS CRY AND IT’S A BREAK OF THE NORM.

SO SHE GIVES HIM ON LAST TRY ONLY TO SEE.

THAT ITS ANOTHER LIE AND SHE CANT LET THIS BE

NOW HES LEFT HER AT HOME WITH A BOTTLE OF JACK.

HER TEARS AND THIS LIQUOR MIXED WAITING FOR HIM TO CONTACT HER BACK.

THE SHE LOOKS AT THE CLOCK IT’S A QUARTER TO FOUR.

SHE TEXT HIM A MESSAGE SAYING SHE CANT DO THIS ANYMORE.

NO RESPONSE TO THE TEXT SHE BEGINS TO THINK.

YOU MADE ME CRY THAT LAST TIME AND HER HEART SIMPLY SINKS.

SHE GETS IN THE CAR HEADED TO HIS PLACE.

MAKE UP SMEARED FROM THE TEARS FALLING DOWN HER FACE.

SHE ARRIVES AT HIS DOOR, BANGING AND SCREAMING.

THE PAIN THAT HES CAUSED HAS BROUGHT OUT HER DEMONS.

HE COMES TO THE DOOR IN HIS BOXERS ALL OUT OF BREATH.

HE LOOKS AT HER LIKE WHATS ABOUT TO HAPPEN NEXT.

SHE BREAKS IN HIS DOOR PUSHING HIM ASIDE.

SCREAMING AND YELLING I'M TIRED OF YOUR LIES.

RUNNING TO HIS ROOM TO DISCOVER A WOMAN IN HIS BED.

THE THOUGHTS OF DESTRUCTION RUN THROUGH HER HEAD.

SHE SAYS WHO ARE YOU DID YOU KNOW ABOUT ME.

THE GIRL IN FEAR SHE REPLY'S NO RELUCTANTLY.

WHO ARE YOU SHE SAYS PLEASE TELL ME YOU JUST SOME HOE.

THE GIRL REPLIES NO I'M HIS GIRLFRIEND OR AT LEAST I THOUGHT SO.

SHE LOOKS AT HIM IN DISGUST AND CAN’T BELIEVE WHAT SHE SEES.

THE MAN THAT SHE LOVES ISN'T WHO SHE THOUGHT HE WOULD BE.

SO SHE PICKS UP THE FIRST THING WITHIN HER REACH.

LAUNCHES TOWARD HIM IN ANGER SHE WANTS HER DEFEAT.

SHE PUNCHES HIM OVER AGAIN YELLING TO THE TOP OF HER LUNGS.

YOU HURT ME FOR THE LAST TIME THE FAT LADY HAS SUNG.

SHE EXITS OUT THE FRONT DOOR IN SUCH A RAGE.

SHE WANTS TO MAKE HIS INFIDELITY A DEMONSTRATION PARADE.

SHE WANTS TO MAKE HIM FEEL AS LOW AS HE HAS HER.

ANGER HAS NO LIMIT TO WHAT IS ABOUT TO OCCUR.

WAKING THE NEIGHBORS SHE MAKES SURE THEY UNDERSTAND.

YOU SEE THIS BOY I THOUGHT HE WAS A MAN.

HE CHEATED ON ME TONIGHT WITH THE CHICK YOU SEE THERE.

HE LIED AND HE PLAYED AND I WAS ALWAYS THERE TO CARE.

BUT THE LAST TIME HAS COME THIS RELATIONSHIP IS TORN.

YOU WILL REGRET THIS BECAUSE I AM A WOMAN SCORNED.

SHE GOES TO HER CAR PULLS OUT A BASEBALL BAT.

THE MEMORIES ARE FLASHING IN HER MIND SO SHE NEVER LOOKS BACK.

PROCEEDING TO SMASH THE ONE THING HE LOVES MORE THAN HER.

HIS CAR WINDOWS ARE GONE ALONG WITH HER BLUR.

SHE KNEELS TO HER KNEES CRYING UNCONTROLLABLY.

NOT KNOWING WHAT HAS HAPPEN TO THE WOMAN SHE WANTED TO BE.

BEFORE KNOW SIRENS HAVE SOUNDED.

AROUND THE HOUSE POLICE HAVE SURROUNDED?

THEY HAVE HER IN CUFFS READY TO TAKE HER INTO CUSTODY.

BUT A MIRACLE HAS HAPPENED THE MAN SHE LOVES SAYS NO LEAVE HER WITH ME.

SO THE NEIGHBORS GO TO BED ALL THE COMMOTION HAS CEASED.

THE SIT DOWN AND TALK OUT THE ANGER IN RELIEF.

BUT SHE IS STILL HURT SHE CANT HEAR PAST HER TEARS.

VISIONS OF THIS WOMAN HE JUST HAD IN HIS BED BRING UP HER FEARS.

SO SHE STANDS IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS CRIES AND PLEADS.

AND SAYS NO I CAN DO THIS ANY MORE I'M SICK AND TIRED OF CRYING.

I LOVE YOU BUT I LOVE MYSELF MORE AND I'M DONE WITH ALL YOUR LYING.

YOU HAVE BURNED ME FOR THE LAST TIME I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

SHE GETS UP LIKE THE WOMAN SHE IS AND WALKS OUT THE FRONT DOOR.

HE BEGS AND HE PLEADS BUT BABY I LOVE YOU PLEASE IVE BEEN REBORN.

SHE SAYS MY HEART WANTS TO BELIEVE YOU BUT MY MIND KNOWS IM A WOMAN SCORNED.

SIGNING OFF - Virtuous Woman